Usual.

Yet another year that hasn’t given me a good start. I took part in multiple sport’s where you could say I performed well and I still lost. From being a failure to being used and having fallout’s with ‘friends’ this year had a great start. I go into hiding because that’s what I do the best after sleeping. But hiding or staying low key or reading ‘positive’ / ‘life changing’ books don’t have any affect on me because deep inside I’m unhappy and I really don’t know why but I’m sure one day I’ll know and it wont be late by then. Till then I’ll watch stand up comedy which I won’t find funny, attend crowded DJ night’s where amidst the crowd I’ll stand still and try to figure why can’t I enjoy electronic dance music like people around me are, dress up but still feel inferior, laugh but stop in the middle to question if it’s me or the demons in my head whose laugh I just heard, eat pastries and pizza and drink coke and lay in my bed all day scrolling quotes on Tumblr, reading hacks and recipes on Pinterest, posting funny yet relatable tweets and reading motivational stories on LinkedIn.

Till then I’ll be the usual.