Conquering it.

I read all the time. Books,quotes,articles everything that comes In front of me, I read.

I happened to read somewhere,”It all seems the hardest thing until you do it and after that it’s the easiest goddamn thing in the world.”

This quote has been ringing in my head since my results have come out.

I’ve always been an average kid in academics and in mathematics? Oh I’ve been worse than average. You could call me a failure and ‘family disgrace’. All my life I’d been running from math and the more I ran the more gigantic and scary it got. So scary that at one point I would have faced a major slide back in my academic life because of it. In my university each subject is allowed to keep terms even after the respective semester is over. But you get only 2 chances to clear it after that you get a year back. Here I was, with my last,”Golden” chance to clear my backlog(s).

The entire year I had only cried and complained how unfair life is and how “god” never supports me and puts me through so much pain. But you know what? If you believe in god( even if you don’t ) remember; everyone, everyone is put on only by a particular amount of pressure which they can handle. You must’ve read in science as a kid how intense pressure results in the formation of a diamond. ( idk if you get the point but I tried)

The one subject I’ve disliked and tried to avoid my entire life was now standing in front of me. And wasn’t alone it had its 3 different levels too. And I had one chance to clear it all. Scary right? Well if you were me you’d know how bad days had been during those times. I had to give exams back to back and when I say back to back I mean Afternoon, next afternoon and next morning.

It seemed impossible to me. But I gave a shot. Of course it wasn’t a shot in the dark. It was a well planned, well executed (you could say so cos I got It done) event.

I used to hear some of my teachers tell their story about how they hated and flunked a particular subject and how they’re a professor for that particular subject and I used to think they’re just saying that to keep us positive and keep us going but it’s now that I feel ; they were just telling us the truth of life. The things we’re afraid of or the things we run from , are the things that are actually gonna test our potential and bring out the best in us.

Mathematics. The one subject that is the base for everything, specially in engineering. I faced it. My biggest weakness is now my biggest strength. Conquer your weakness and nobody can use it against you. Trust me.

I’ve always, always struggled and begged people to help me out with mathematics but nothing helped until I got to work on my own. In the end you’ve got to be your own hero. You’ve got to accept your flaws and you’ve got to overcome it and never let anyone use it against you.

I used to casually say (because I knew it wasn’t possible) “ If I clear all levels of math at one go, I’ll designate myself god”.

Deep inside, of course I wanted to be god, I wanted to do something nobody expected out of me, Not even a part of me.

But I did it.

And idk about me being a god but I know one god and he’s there above supporting and putting you through things only because he wants you to overcome your fear, your anger, your weakness, your flaws and most importantly to learn.